So I havent updated in a WHILE. been busy.
:)
After The last Birthday party I had 2 tests. Both of which i failed
>.>
School is depressing lets not talk about it.
We did a Secret Sant last Thursday in the Hallway. I got...lets call her J.S. She wantes this zombie calender. Got it for her. I didnt know what else to get her. She was happy so i guess it was fine
:D
But me on the other hand, my Secret Santa was nice enough to get me the nicest, prettiest cardigen ever.
:D
ITS SO PRETTY. I LOVES IT SO MUCH!!
Its maroon and has HUGE pockets and really pretty sleeves. AND its REALLY soft and big and comfy
:)
A freind was not happy with her present, she had asked for chocolate when we were going around saying what we wanted but she had meant it as a side present. She wasnt happy. Maybe i'll make her a pair of earrings in purple to cheer her up?? I dont have any purpley beads though maybe something bluey that could pass for purple. Dunno
But that leads me to JEWLERY. A buncha friends and I went downtown to the fashion distrrict to some bead and fabric stores. Bought lots of stuff. Went back with my mom, spent 40 bucks on tools and metal parts for earrings. Ive made 7 pairs of earrings and a bracelet.
That again leads me to todays burfday. I gave a cookbook and I made a pair of earrings.
Now going on with presents another friend in University has a present for me
O.O
I have nothing to give him though and it makes me feel bad. Hes so nice. Im gonna see if i can find Aja Killian stuff for him HAHAHAHHA.
OH OH forgot rewinding back to the Secret Santa, the day after my school had a Winter Assembly. OMFG. IM SCARRED FOR LIFE> They showed one of my teachers in the shower. At least it was only his upper torso. But then my math teacher...In a red dress. Backless. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Im so scarred its not even funny. EWWEWWEWWW.
But yeah. And then im sick. Ive rarely been this sick. Ive had a fever since Monday. Sneezing and spreading germs all over my house har har har.
:D
And my burfdays coming up. Maybe ill have a little burfday party too. Last year of highschoo. Why not??
;)
~Live, Laugh, ARR
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
People
People are interesting creatures. No scrath that HUMANS i should say are interesting creatures. We love, hate, be jealous, greedy, giving, generous, murderous, kind and I could keep going.
But what I found most interesting about myself is this, I find it easy to make friends (this I dont understand, im quite unsocial and like to keep to myself and yet I make friends is that wierd???) but moving on I get along with people fine and I dont understan the emotion of hating people but recently like THIS YEAR I've found myslef loathing on the point of having murderous thought about someone. Namely my teacher. I've had her for 3 years now from grade 10 and i still have her. She teaches me chem. I tried convincing myself early on that I respect her maybe a little and that i dont hate her but i dislike her. NO. I FRIGGING HATE HER. She hates me too so the feeling is mutual.
Here is what is interesting though, I have every reason to hate her, shes rude, she insults you in class, shes hard to understand and dosent make herself clear but I hate myself for hating her. I dont like the idea of me hating someone it makes me feel bad. I much prefer making people happy and making them smile and laugh especcially if they are sad and down. That makes ME happy but when I hate someone or generally dislike them it makes me hate myself and makes me feel horrible about myself.
This has happened to me onve before in middle school. I HATED MIDDLE SCHOOL (but this is for another blog post). I hated everyone, me, my situation, my teachers (except for a few). But me hating everything and everyone mainly made me hate myself. And I swear to god I had depression. I wasnt diagnised in a hospital or anything but looking back it was depression. My emotions were haywire, my grades were all over the place and I wanted to jump out my balcony window. But the point is I hate hate pretty much. IT makes me depresseed and because of that my grade drop. In elementary i loved everyone and i was happy and my grades reflected it too I used to get A's and B's. And know Im right down in the dumps.
I tried studying Chem yesterday but everytime I sit down and start I think about HER. and how much she makes me angry. Ive had way too many murderous fantasies. even in class i play scenarios where I either get rescued by friends, my brother or something terrible happens to her. Im sure those things are not good for a human brain to have. If i went to a psychoanalysis i'll probably be put into an institution or a mental hospital or something.
Only thing keeping me sane--> Books, Friends, Upcoming fashion Show.
I think this blogging thing is keeping me sane as well though because it lets me spill my thought out and not have to worry so much anymore. But yes for know thats it.
Oh I have a math test on wednesday I'll probably fail again.
Ive been contemplating dissapearing off the face of the earth again. It seems nicer, school stress, uni applications etc wont bother me but on the other hand, my family and friends will be sad and i wouldnt want to leave them that way. Plus there is a crap load of stuff i havent done that i want to do.
~Live, Laugh, ARR
But what I found most interesting about myself is this, I find it easy to make friends (this I dont understand, im quite unsocial and like to keep to myself and yet I make friends is that wierd???) but moving on I get along with people fine and I dont understan the emotion of hating people but recently like THIS YEAR I've found myslef loathing on the point of having murderous thought about someone. Namely my teacher. I've had her for 3 years now from grade 10 and i still have her. She teaches me chem. I tried convincing myself early on that I respect her maybe a little and that i dont hate her but i dislike her. NO. I FRIGGING HATE HER. She hates me too so the feeling is mutual.
Here is what is interesting though, I have every reason to hate her, shes rude, she insults you in class, shes hard to understand and dosent make herself clear but I hate myself for hating her. I dont like the idea of me hating someone it makes me feel bad. I much prefer making people happy and making them smile and laugh especcially if they are sad and down. That makes ME happy but when I hate someone or generally dislike them it makes me hate myself and makes me feel horrible about myself.
This has happened to me onve before in middle school. I HATED MIDDLE SCHOOL (but this is for another blog post). I hated everyone, me, my situation, my teachers (except for a few). But me hating everything and everyone mainly made me hate myself. And I swear to god I had depression. I wasnt diagnised in a hospital or anything but looking back it was depression. My emotions were haywire, my grades were all over the place and I wanted to jump out my balcony window. But the point is I hate hate pretty much. IT makes me depresseed and because of that my grade drop. In elementary i loved everyone and i was happy and my grades reflected it too I used to get A's and B's. And know Im right down in the dumps.
I tried studying Chem yesterday but everytime I sit down and start I think about HER. and how much she makes me angry. Ive had way too many murderous fantasies. even in class i play scenarios where I either get rescued by friends, my brother or something terrible happens to her. Im sure those things are not good for a human brain to have. If i went to a psychoanalysis i'll probably be put into an institution or a mental hospital or something.
Only thing keeping me sane--> Books, Friends, Upcoming fashion Show.
I think this blogging thing is keeping me sane as well though because it lets me spill my thought out and not have to worry so much anymore. But yes for know thats it.
Oh I have a math test on wednesday I'll probably fail again.
Ive been contemplating dissapearing off the face of the earth again. It seems nicer, school stress, uni applications etc wont bother me but on the other hand, my family and friends will be sad and i wouldnt want to leave them that way. Plus there is a crap load of stuff i havent done that i want to do.
~Live, Laugh, ARR
Friday, December 10, 2010
Party
IT was a friends birthday party today.IT WAS THE BEST. I really needed it after that damned old smoker pissed me off to no end today. Ialmost blew my top on her. If you ask someone a question you ask it straight not twisted.It made me so mad, i repeated myself 5 times and she still dosent tell me what she wantsme to say. LIKE OMG. This kid who sits next to me got asked a swell and he was like "I think she covered everything" I was so happy, YES IN YOUR FACE YOU SMOKER. Like honestly there is a limit i have to hold myself off this year before i do some serious harm, if she were younger id come back and fight her but shes too old.
>.>
And then OMG the funniest thing, my school held a market day and my old physics teacher from grade 11 whom i christened Hobo as he is so scruffy, DANCED
He is so insane I dunno how he was granted his teaching lisence. Hes hilarious but just INSANE.
I ACCTUALLY thought he was a hobo when i saw him in the cafe and then i was like OMG its him BAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA!!!
SOO FUNNY
But back to the party
IT WAS AMAZING. SO much fun, removed all the depression and stress of this week. I got my freind a headband and i made a pouffy flower to go on it, i also got her a bronzy eyeshadow and chocolate. She said before that she wanted makeup. The only makeup i know how to buy well is eyeliner. But when she said makeup i immediately thought for her BRONZE. And i found one left yesterda at a reasonable price SO HAPPY. I love the feeling of making other people happy. It makes me happy when i make someone else happy or put a smile on their face. IT makes me feel for lack of better terms all warm and fuzzy inside.
:D
I didnt sleepover because i wasnt allowed to but it was still so much fun. Know i want to have my own birthday party for my 17th. IT would be fun. before i have to go to school. Besides for the first time in my WHOLE SCHOOL CAREER im having a birthday on a school day.
O.O
I was lots of fun thought and it made me SOO MUCH BETTER. It feels so good to be surounded by friends. Sure we see eachother at school but we hardly have time to enjoy as we did today/tonight. We are always busy due to stupid school.
Im also thinking of not becoming a paleontologist. Im failing math and chem and these are 2 important subjects i need. WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO????
I LOVE DINOSAURS. It breaks my heart but if im failing i cant get in where i want.
I told my friends little sister that 20 yrs from know if she sees me on the street to give me her spare change. I can seriously see myslef as a beggar. Living in a cardboard box and begging, cold alone and wretched. Isnt that sad??? No one should have to imagine a future such as that. But even more sadly i find that mental image quite hilarious.
Tsk Tsk
Anyway im super sleepy so im off to bed
~Live, Laugh, ARR
>.>
And then OMG the funniest thing, my school held a market day and my old physics teacher from grade 11 whom i christened Hobo as he is so scruffy, DANCED
He is so insane I dunno how he was granted his teaching lisence. Hes hilarious but just INSANE.
I ACCTUALLY thought he was a hobo when i saw him in the cafe and then i was like OMG its him BAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA!!!
SOO FUNNY
But back to the party
IT WAS AMAZING. SO much fun, removed all the depression and stress of this week. I got my freind a headband and i made a pouffy flower to go on it, i also got her a bronzy eyeshadow and chocolate. She said before that she wanted makeup. The only makeup i know how to buy well is eyeliner. But when she said makeup i immediately thought for her BRONZE. And i found one left yesterda at a reasonable price SO HAPPY. I love the feeling of making other people happy. It makes me happy when i make someone else happy or put a smile on their face. IT makes me feel for lack of better terms all warm and fuzzy inside.
:D
I didnt sleepover because i wasnt allowed to but it was still so much fun. Know i want to have my own birthday party for my 17th. IT would be fun. before i have to go to school. Besides for the first time in my WHOLE SCHOOL CAREER im having a birthday on a school day.
O.O
I was lots of fun thought and it made me SOO MUCH BETTER. It feels so good to be surounded by friends. Sure we see eachother at school but we hardly have time to enjoy as we did today/tonight. We are always busy due to stupid school.
Im also thinking of not becoming a paleontologist. Im failing math and chem and these are 2 important subjects i need. WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO????
I LOVE DINOSAURS. It breaks my heart but if im failing i cant get in where i want.
I told my friends little sister that 20 yrs from know if she sees me on the street to give me her spare change. I can seriously see myslef as a beggar. Living in a cardboard box and begging, cold alone and wretched. Isnt that sad??? No one should have to imagine a future such as that. But even more sadly i find that mental image quite hilarious.
Tsk Tsk
Anyway im super sleepy so im off to bed
~Live, Laugh, ARR
Thursday, November 25, 2010
:'(
So today was the Math Test...
It's not fair during the test I know most things but don't connect to that's what the question is asking
its not fair
and I think my chem teacher called home too...
in world issues sasha showed me Pirates of the Carribean right before chem it made me SO happy
JACK♥
but yeah im pretty unhappy today
and the library issues was word
and certain people in the place of taking food are acting weird for the past two days...
tommorow is the law trip happy bout that
It's not fair during the test I know most things but don't connect to that's what the question is asking
its not fair
and I think my chem teacher called home too...
in world issues sasha showed me Pirates of the Carribean right before chem it made me SO happy
JACK♥
but yeah im pretty unhappy today
and the library issues was word
and certain people in the place of taking food are acting weird for the past two days...
tommorow is the law trip happy bout that
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Thursday :'(
First off OMG GIN
she died
:'(
ELI♥ I feel so bad for him. He finnally found himself someone, literally in the middle of outerspace. Maybe not the perfect person but at least it's one kind of happy for him and what happens??? she's murdered.
He looked so SAD and and :'(
I dont get why the writers are so mean too him. IT's enough that he has self esteem issues, his mom has AIDS AND he's stuck out in outer space. And know everyone he loves either rejects him (chloe) and know Gin died.
And then the Chem test. I've never felt SO clueless on a test before. And THAT WOMAN kept staring over my shoulder. I bet she keeps thinking what an idiot whenever she sees me. And more so when she marks my tests. I like chem but not hte way she teaches it. and Shit i have to do the lab with anna tommorow and i'll be clueless as to what im calculatiing.
We got our PINS for Uni registering today. I feel so unprepared. I want to badly give up but my stupid PRIDE wont let me. I guess thats a good thing but still. It'll be the ONLY good thing my pride does for me.
What else. Oh after the chem test celine was selling muffins for book club OHH they were nummy. The ICING SO GOOD i want to eat a whole pack of icing know it made me feel so much better.
:)
I feel depressedy again but I dont know where mamma hid the mars and assorted hearshey bars. :(
Im gonna console myself with Bones and maybe try and find some new manga/anime or something to make me feel better??.
And wow i've been updating alot lately...surprising.
~Live, Laugh, ARR
she died
:'(
ELI♥ I feel so bad for him. He finnally found himself someone, literally in the middle of outerspace. Maybe not the perfect person but at least it's one kind of happy for him and what happens??? she's murdered.
He looked so SAD and and :'(
I dont get why the writers are so mean too him. IT's enough that he has self esteem issues, his mom has AIDS AND he's stuck out in outer space. And know everyone he loves either rejects him (chloe) and know Gin died.
And then the Chem test. I've never felt SO clueless on a test before. And THAT WOMAN kept staring over my shoulder. I bet she keeps thinking what an idiot whenever she sees me. And more so when she marks my tests. I like chem but not hte way she teaches it. and Shit i have to do the lab with anna tommorow and i'll be clueless as to what im calculatiing.
We got our PINS for Uni registering today. I feel so unprepared. I want to badly give up but my stupid PRIDE wont let me. I guess thats a good thing but still. It'll be the ONLY good thing my pride does for me.
What else. Oh after the chem test celine was selling muffins for book club OHH they were nummy. The ICING SO GOOD i want to eat a whole pack of icing know it made me feel so much better.
:)
I feel depressedy again but I dont know where mamma hid the mars and assorted hearshey bars. :(
Im gonna console myself with Bones and maybe try and find some new manga/anime or something to make me feel better??.
And wow i've been updating alot lately...surprising.
~Live, Laugh, ARR
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Stress
Ugh I'm feeling SO stressed lately.
Specifically from Chemistry and the Math.
I've made too many mistakes in life.
I should have dropped Physics and Anthro last year and taken TEch. Design and Comm. Tech where I would have been happier and done better. and then I should have finished off Chem 12 in Summer School. And then if I'd done that I could have taken Tech. Design and COmm Tech 12 this year and gotten REALLY good grades.
I want to drop Chem 12 but the issue is tha I need it, if I take it Night School then I have to take it next semester and then I have to juggle Calculus, Chem and Bio. and have 5 courses.
I seriously wish I could re-do high school, like from the start. Straight from grade 9. I would do so much better. I would have tried harder in courses where I didnt before, I would make different choices.
Now I'm even thinking maybe I should have gone into the arts????
I dunno I feel like my life is SUCH A mess right know.
I havea Math test last period today and I am NOT prepared.
Then reight before lunch I havea Chem Lab. GOD I seriously don't want to go into Chem anymore. I feel everytime I go there it's like suffocation or slow death or something. See there is another mistake. I should have switched out of World ISsues and taken Chem 12 with Mr. Hall.
It's just to much. I feel like I wont even make it into University. I feel like a complete failure in life and I try not to cry but god im screaming on the inside. It's giving me so much stress. I hope I dont break down or something. I just feel like I want to restart my life like form day 1 and live it differently. But then that would mean I wouldnt turn out like me. It's sucha double edged sword.
I haven't even laughed seriously in such a long time. Thant's not me I usually have at least ONE thing too be happy about but I'm so depressed and unhappy and dissapointed to be happy about anything. Not even candy and chocolate is making me happy.
:'(
~Live Laugh, Love
Specifically from Chemistry and the Math.
I've made too many mistakes in life.
I should have dropped Physics and Anthro last year and taken TEch. Design and Comm. Tech where I would have been happier and done better. and then I should have finished off Chem 12 in Summer School. And then if I'd done that I could have taken Tech. Design and COmm Tech 12 this year and gotten REALLY good grades.
I want to drop Chem 12 but the issue is tha I need it, if I take it Night School then I have to take it next semester and then I have to juggle Calculus, Chem and Bio. and have 5 courses.
I seriously wish I could re-do high school, like from the start. Straight from grade 9. I would do so much better. I would have tried harder in courses where I didnt before, I would make different choices.
Now I'm even thinking maybe I should have gone into the arts????
I dunno I feel like my life is SUCH A mess right know.
I havea Math test last period today and I am NOT prepared.
Then reight before lunch I havea Chem Lab. GOD I seriously don't want to go into Chem anymore. I feel everytime I go there it's like suffocation or slow death or something. See there is another mistake. I should have switched out of World ISsues and taken Chem 12 with Mr. Hall.
It's just to much. I feel like I wont even make it into University. I feel like a complete failure in life and I try not to cry but god im screaming on the inside. It's giving me so much stress. I hope I dont break down or something. I just feel like I want to restart my life like form day 1 and live it differently. But then that would mean I wouldnt turn out like me. It's sucha double edged sword.
I haven't even laughed seriously in such a long time. Thant's not me I usually have at least ONE thing too be happy about but I'm so depressed and unhappy and dissapointed to be happy about anything. Not even candy and chocolate is making me happy.
:'(
~Live Laugh, Love
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
OH SGU UPDATE
ELI GOT LUCKYYY
IM SO HAPPY
I LOVE ELI
Eli is my most favorite character in the stargate franchise next to Jack♥
He's so funny and I hated how he always got all the shit and how he has self-esteem issues.
But awww he's found himslef someone after bastard Chloe tormented him
I dont like her she's pretty annoying, I never saw what HE saw in her. Eli deserved much better. But at the same time I feel Jin/Gin is not for him. They dont fit well, they fit but not well. MAybe he'll find someone better after. I like Jin/Gin but I dont like them together it's not fan-girl worthy
;)
ELi is so adorable he needs someone I dont know yet...I just know that he should have someone differnt then Jin/Gin.
Another update THEY FOUND THE BRIG.
I'm acctually dissapointed though, I liked how it was secret with Rush for so long
:(
And Young was so mad, haha, the writers always make oppertunities to get Rush and Young to beat each other up its SO funny
XDD
anyway that was my little sci/fi nerd girl moment
:D
Live, Laugh, Love♥
IM SO HAPPY
I LOVE ELI
Eli is my most favorite character in the stargate franchise next to Jack♥
He's so funny and I hated how he always got all the shit and how he has self-esteem issues.
But awww he's found himslef someone after bastard Chloe tormented him
I dont like her she's pretty annoying, I never saw what HE saw in her. Eli deserved much better. But at the same time I feel Jin/Gin is not for him. They dont fit well, they fit but not well. MAybe he'll find someone better after. I like Jin/Gin but I dont like them together it's not fan-girl worthy
;)
ELi is so adorable he needs someone I dont know yet...I just know that he should have someone differnt then Jin/Gin.
Another update THEY FOUND THE BRIG.
I'm acctually dissapointed though, I liked how it was secret with Rush for so long
:(
And Young was so mad, haha, the writers always make oppertunities to get Rush and Young to beat each other up its SO funny
XDD
anyway that was my little sci/fi nerd girl moment
:D
Live, Laugh, Love♥
Novemeber so far
GRAWWWR, hig school is so frustrating. My friends were always saying how they hated high school. I acctually like it...up until this year. GRADE 12 IS SO STRESSFUL. I got sick, missed two days. missed a chem test. Whats more out of 5 days I only went to chem for one. I t felt SO good not having vhem -sigh- I wish I could rop.
>.>
World Issues --> PAIN IN THE ASS
I hjate writing essays, but essay is better than debate. I hate how debates get over so fast, I'm more of a discussion person, I dont like taking one point, I like looking at an issues from both perspectives, hearing other opinions and then forming my opinion on where I stand.
Thats precisely why I LOVE LAW ( crap I have hmwrk I should be doing :)
But well Life its so COMPLICATED.
TSK TSK
I'm not overly frustrated today, just not in the mood for dumb homework. But homework done is a better grade in class, and grades are the BIGGEST worry on my mind know.
GAHHH UNIVERSITY APPS>
SO TERRIFIED
O.O
My parents opinion though is I should become a lawyer instead of a vertebrate paleontologist. I say no because I am a generally neutral person. funny how that turned out
XD
Anyway it was a short post today, but back to work...or attempting work
:)
Live, Laugh, Love♥
>.>
World Issues --> PAIN IN THE ASS
I hjate writing essays, but essay is better than debate. I hate how debates get over so fast, I'm more of a discussion person, I dont like taking one point, I like looking at an issues from both perspectives, hearing other opinions and then forming my opinion on where I stand.
Thats precisely why I LOVE LAW ( crap I have hmwrk I should be doing :)
But well Life its so COMPLICATED.
TSK TSK
I'm not overly frustrated today, just not in the mood for dumb homework. But homework done is a better grade in class, and grades are the BIGGEST worry on my mind know.
GAHHH UNIVERSITY APPS>
SO TERRIFIED
O.O
My parents opinion though is I should become a lawyer instead of a vertebrate paleontologist. I say no because I am a generally neutral person. funny how that turned out
XD
Anyway it was a short post today, but back to work...or attempting work
:)
Live, Laugh, Love♥
Monday, October 25, 2010
October update
I know I haven't been posting lately, I feel I should turn this into a spill diary because I've been feeling pretty depressed lately.
School is just OMG, I feel so crushed, dissapointed and sad in there. I dread going to Math and Chem because those classes are scary. I got my intrims and I got what I expected.
I'm SO frustrated, I don't know what to do In Math I do all my homework and mostly I get what I'm doing and then on the Test its just like WTF is this shit. My teacher was like well the tests won't be like homweork, you have to think on the test. How the hell am I supposed to do a question backwards. I'm sorry but my brain dosent' work that way. Plus it was worse today because I was busy and tierd over the weekend and didn't do most of my math homework, OH and guess what he womework checked. I know I should have done it but like IT'S SO STRESSFUL!!! I want to be able to sleep peacefully for once. Even when I'm sleeping I have dreams about school and teachers and work and I'ts driving me INSANE.
It's the same for Chemistry. I DON'T EFFING GET WHAT THIS WOMEN TEACHES. Half the time she expects you to know crap. ILL KNOW IT IF YOU EXPLAIN THATS WHAT YOURE HERE FOR.
DAMN
Same thing for the test too, she's like oh I marked them they were so bad, yeah well I don't care but I ultimately have to so I can got to Uni. This sucks so much, I dont want to take half the courses I'm taking but I'm only taking them for University.
Oh and guess what it gets better, apparently I have a Math quiz tommorow. I HATE FUNCTIONS AND GRAPHING. They piss me off.
On a better note the only class I'm acctually enjoying right know is Law. I like the disscussions and things we are having. I just don't like all the homework we get.
World Issues is SO BORING, we get a crap load of work and I'm not learning anything. I pretty much waste my time in there, Plus its full of idiots i hoped never too see.
I'm so depressed, and I'm going to be even more so on thursday PARENT TEACHER MEETING. I'm so done with my life, It's so sad, I seriously want to have a break from life and living and not having to worry about grades and school.
~Live Laugh Love
School is just OMG, I feel so crushed, dissapointed and sad in there. I dread going to Math and Chem because those classes are scary. I got my intrims and I got what I expected.
I'm SO frustrated, I don't know what to do In Math I do all my homework and mostly I get what I'm doing and then on the Test its just like WTF is this shit. My teacher was like well the tests won't be like homweork, you have to think on the test. How the hell am I supposed to do a question backwards. I'm sorry but my brain dosent' work that way. Plus it was worse today because I was busy and tierd over the weekend and didn't do most of my math homework, OH and guess what he womework checked. I know I should have done it but like IT'S SO STRESSFUL!!! I want to be able to sleep peacefully for once. Even when I'm sleeping I have dreams about school and teachers and work and I'ts driving me INSANE.
It's the same for Chemistry. I DON'T EFFING GET WHAT THIS WOMEN TEACHES. Half the time she expects you to know crap. ILL KNOW IT IF YOU EXPLAIN THATS WHAT YOURE HERE FOR.
DAMN
Same thing for the test too, she's like oh I marked them they were so bad, yeah well I don't care but I ultimately have to so I can got to Uni. This sucks so much, I dont want to take half the courses I'm taking but I'm only taking them for University.
Oh and guess what it gets better, apparently I have a Math quiz tommorow. I HATE FUNCTIONS AND GRAPHING. They piss me off.
On a better note the only class I'm acctually enjoying right know is Law. I like the disscussions and things we are having. I just don't like all the homework we get.
World Issues is SO BORING, we get a crap load of work and I'm not learning anything. I pretty much waste my time in there, Plus its full of idiots i hoped never too see.
I'm so depressed, and I'm going to be even more so on thursday PARENT TEACHER MEETING. I'm so done with my life, It's so sad, I seriously want to have a break from life and living and not having to worry about grades and school.
~Live Laugh Love
Monday, September 27, 2010
Bones
Ahh its been so long since I last posted. Frankly, it's because I was getting lazy and didn't want to log in -sheepish smile-. but on the other hand I've been super busy with school too. math is okay so far though, we had a horrendous test. OMg, the one Indian teacher is horrible (obviously), and loves to torture us. Chem is....chem...had a test there too, apparently I did something wrong. Had a quiz to, teacher said our whole class did horrible. >eye roll< WHATEVER. Law is pretty boring, I find myslef falling asleep really easily, also especcially since its the morning. Though I really love it when we have open discussion. World Issues is the ultimate bore. Plus as an added "bonus", the class is full of annoying morons I was hoping not to see in final year.
Anyway, I know it's final year but I heard tha the season premier of Bones season 6 was last wednesday or something and I'd always intended to see tha tshow. God I didnt know they had 5 seasons already. Just started watching as a treat when I finish homework though. Almost done Season 1. I LOVE Booth and Brennan. I really love how Brennan is so socially awkward and Booth is just plain awesome. This is also a change for me, because I'm no much of a series/drama viewer. The only thing I really watch is Sci Fi, the Food Network, Discovery and the occasional cartoon network (btw the state of cartoons these days is APALLING, but htat'sa rant for another day). Anyway, i digress, I like that I'm going into the whole crime scene drama. And what I like about Bones is that it's humourous as well.
Speaking of shows, STARGATE UNIVERSE SEASON 2 PREMIER IS TOMMOROW. I'M SO EXCITEDDDDDD. they ended off with sucha gruelling cliffhanger. I've been waiting a good at least 5 months know. And this is what is better. October 15th is the 3rd SEASON PREMIER OF SANCTUARYY. Sanctuary was going to run parallel to SGU, but the Sci Fi channel is bringing back Caprica so they pushed back the premier to next month...Bastards. Sanctuary ended off with a HUGE cliffhanger too. I CANT WAIT. I'm really impatient.
Anyway, I just felt like ranting a little, know back to boring Law homework, >YAWN<
~Live, Laugh, Love
Anyway, I know it's final year but I heard tha the season premier of Bones season 6 was last wednesday or something and I'd always intended to see tha tshow. God I didnt know they had 5 seasons already. Just started watching as a treat when I finish homework though. Almost done Season 1. I LOVE Booth and Brennan. I really love how Brennan is so socially awkward and Booth is just plain awesome. This is also a change for me, because I'm no much of a series/drama viewer. The only thing I really watch is Sci Fi, the Food Network, Discovery and the occasional cartoon network (btw the state of cartoons these days is APALLING, but htat'sa rant for another day). Anyway, i digress, I like that I'm going into the whole crime scene drama. And what I like about Bones is that it's humourous as well.
Speaking of shows, STARGATE UNIVERSE SEASON 2 PREMIER IS TOMMOROW. I'M SO EXCITEDDDDDD. they ended off with sucha gruelling cliffhanger. I've been waiting a good at least 5 months know. And this is what is better. October 15th is the 3rd SEASON PREMIER OF SANCTUARYY. Sanctuary was going to run parallel to SGU, but the Sci Fi channel is bringing back Caprica so they pushed back the premier to next month...Bastards. Sanctuary ended off with a HUGE cliffhanger too. I CANT WAIT. I'm really impatient.
Anyway, I just felt like ranting a little, know back to boring Law homework, >YAWN<
~Live, Laugh, Love
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Almost school
So its almost school, exactly a week to go acctually and what am I doing?
Staying up late
But I have a reason this time, i was feeling creative as well as panicking about the year too come.
I cant believe it's Grade 12 already.
So i have a new layout design for my designated "study" room, wherin i acctually hope to properly study in next year.
That's why this last month of summer I've been reading and watching movies like crazy so that I can give it up for the next 10 months. I need to get good grades. Plus I hate Adv. Functions and Calculus and of course I have to take them. How frustrating, but I'll get through it. As lame as it sounds "Where there is a will there is a way" is pretty true, if you want something badly your bound to get it if you strive for it.
I'm hopine as well to stop wasting time and concentrate this year after all Universities as well as Education systems are fickle and only grades matter.
I on the other hand agree with '3 Idiots' and staunchly believe that you should do what you love best because then you will do it to the fullest of your capacity and as an added bonus you will be happy. But alas the people who make the rules do not think like me.
Anyways I will hope to be making this blog weekly or bi-weekly and hoping to add pictures once I get a decent camera (around winter vacation/Boxing Week hopefully).
~Live, Laugh, Love
Staying up late
But I have a reason this time, i was feeling creative as well as panicking about the year too come.
I cant believe it's Grade 12 already.
So i have a new layout design for my designated "study" room, wherin i acctually hope to properly study in next year.
That's why this last month of summer I've been reading and watching movies like crazy so that I can give it up for the next 10 months. I need to get good grades. Plus I hate Adv. Functions and Calculus and of course I have to take them. How frustrating, but I'll get through it. As lame as it sounds "Where there is a will there is a way" is pretty true, if you want something badly your bound to get it if you strive for it.
I'm hopine as well to stop wasting time and concentrate this year after all Universities as well as Education systems are fickle and only grades matter.
I on the other hand agree with '3 Idiots' and staunchly believe that you should do what you love best because then you will do it to the fullest of your capacity and as an added bonus you will be happy. But alas the people who make the rules do not think like me.
Anyways I will hope to be making this blog weekly or bi-weekly and hoping to add pictures once I get a decent camera (around winter vacation/Boxing Week hopefully).
~Live, Laugh, Love
Monday, August 2, 2010
Been a While
So its been quite the while since I last posted...been feeling quite lazy.
Summer school just ended, 82 chem ;)
I acctually quite miss the principle and her morning/after lunch announcement HAHAH "Goodmorning Dr. Norman Bethune Summer School" HAHA PRICELESS
But yeah, I've been lazing around, I got a new fineliner, gum art eraser and one of those nice molding erasers.
If i feel up to it I'l draw something to put up.
My camera is broken though so I'll have to use my crappy scanner
>.>
Life has been okay so far I guess, stuffed myslef with lotsa junk food with a buncha friends today.
I also discovered i suck at frisbee HAHA
But yeah, im still working on that bag, i just figured that I couldnt hand sew it unfortunately. I'm gonna use an old ripped pair of my jeans as a liner and that's a bonus because then I'll have pockets inside to keep keys and wallet and phone.
~Live, Laugh, Love
Summer school just ended, 82 chem ;)
I acctually quite miss the principle and her morning/after lunch announcement HAHAH "Goodmorning Dr. Norman Bethune Summer School" HAHA PRICELESS
But yeah, I've been lazing around, I got a new fineliner, gum art eraser and one of those nice molding erasers.
If i feel up to it I'l draw something to put up.
My camera is broken though so I'll have to use my crappy scanner
>.>
Life has been okay so far I guess, stuffed myslef with lotsa junk food with a buncha friends today.
I also discovered i suck at frisbee HAHA
But yeah, im still working on that bag, i just figured that I couldnt hand sew it unfortunately. I'm gonna use an old ripped pair of my jeans as a liner and that's a bonus because then I'll have pockets inside to keep keys and wallet and phone.
~Live, Laugh, Love
Friday, July 16, 2010
ITS FRIDAY!!
OMG so it's finnaly friday and my teacher can stop being naggy about me falling asleep in class
=__________________=
Some teacher to not know that kids always fall asleep in class i mean come on its obvious and he claims he;s been teaching for 8 years
HAH
and they tell us we don't learn
but oh gee i finnally got an 80 midterm for chem
HAHA
WOOHOOO
i know its not the best mark but hey for one who is sleeping class not bad eh
I'm still contemplating the size, design and aplique that will go on the bag im going to sew but yes i will try to have the how-to pictures up online as fast as possible!
watched and read the latest episode + chapter of Kaichou wa maid sama
WOOHOOO
i love usui and misaki though im not much of a romance/shojou reader i really love this series its pretty hilarious especially usui's antiques and misaki's shyness
HAHA
going to the US for a bit soon god its so different there for all that people think and say tha tthe US and Canada are the same GOD they are COMPLETELY diff.
i like canada better, like as in according to how the streets and buildings look the US just looks...wierd....no offence to any americans of course
;)
but ive talked enough until next time
~Live, Laugh, Love♥
=__________________=
Some teacher to not know that kids always fall asleep in class i mean come on its obvious and he claims he;s been teaching for 8 years
HAH
and they tell us we don't learn
but oh gee i finnally got an 80 midterm for chem
HAHA
WOOHOOO
i know its not the best mark but hey for one who is sleeping class not bad eh
I'm still contemplating the size, design and aplique that will go on the bag im going to sew but yes i will try to have the how-to pictures up online as fast as possible!
watched and read the latest episode + chapter of Kaichou wa maid sama
WOOHOOO
i love usui and misaki though im not much of a romance/shojou reader i really love this series its pretty hilarious especially usui's antiques and misaki's shyness
HAHA
going to the US for a bit soon god its so different there for all that people think and say tha tthe US and Canada are the same GOD they are COMPLETELY diff.
i like canada better, like as in according to how the streets and buildings look the US just looks...wierd....no offence to any americans of course
;)
but ive talked enough until next time
~Live, Laugh, Love♥
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Life so far...
Summer school is almost over, about 2 weeks to exams!
I have a unit test I'm supposed to be studying for but instead I'm blogging like the good child I am
;)
New movies to watch: Despicable Me (YAY for evil geniuses!)
Upcoming updates: Probably a craft one on how I'm going to sew a little bag for myself out of an old pair of jeans
Green all the way
until my next blog
~Live, Laugh, Love♥
I have a unit test I'm supposed to be studying for but instead I'm blogging like the good child I am
;)
New movies to watch: Despicable Me (YAY for evil geniuses!)
Upcoming updates: Probably a craft one on how I'm going to sew a little bag for myself out of an old pair of jeans
Green all the way
until my next blog
~Live, Laugh, Love♥
New Blog
Wow I've never blogged before but this is acctually pretty fun!
Here is to future random rantings where I rant about: my life, designs, food, movies, crafts!
Here is to future random rantings where I rant about: my life, designs, food, movies, crafts!
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